Thirteen Steps

Beethoven – Piano Sonata No. 14

Why am I awake right now? I’m not at all tired. I suppose the recent [event] is to blame, but it’s really not on my mind in the same way that is has been the last week or so. I mean, it’s there, but it’s pretty fleeting. Comes and goes. Prior to today, it had absolutely taken over my head. But it’s not, right now.

Pink Floyd – Another Brick in The Wall, Part One

A myriad of introspection has come about, lately. I’ve been humbled by this all to the point of having no choice but to address myself on many levels. I’ve determined things, I suppose. Realized what’s truly important.

Magnetic Fields – I Don’t Believe In The Sun

Friends. Friends are important to me. Lovers come and go, sometimes pretty abruptly, but friends seem to stick around. I’m lucky to know some really great people. I feel like making a list. Here goes: [in no particular order at all]

Lynn: You’re my best friend. When the whirlwind of emotional shit hits me and I’m feeling completely defeated, you’re the only person I want to talk to.

Dan: You’re the funniest person I know. Your wit inspires me more than you can imagine.

Kaye: I’m amazed at what you’ve been through. You’re beautiful, clever, and strong. Thank you for being so candid with me.

Scott G.: You’ve saved my ass more than a couple of times. You’re capable of anything, and it certainly doesn’t go unnoticed.

Brandon: You’re style of humor gets better and better. I let loose with you in a way that I don’t do with anyone else.

Michael C.: You’re a wonderful artist, conversationalist, and have impeccable taste. Your genuine interest in those around you is rare and very appreciated. I hope to connect with myself like you do.

Joe: You give the term, ‘social butterfly’ good meaning. I’ve never felt judged by you and your lust for life is obvious.

Jen P.: You have qualities that are beyond rare. You make me feel welcome and appreciated each time we hang out.

Darrough: Your devotion to absorbing culture and doing what you love is brave and enviable. I aspire to be where you’ve been.

Will: I feel like we were cut in half at birth. We indentify on so much and you’ve helped me put things into perspective. I hope to someday achieve your level of resolve.

Shelby: I’ve known you since we were teenage trouble-makers. You surprise me all the time and I’m inspired by your optimism.

Phil D.: We don’t get to talk often, but your wisdom is apparent. Your wit and kind words have greatly assisted in improving my mood.

John T.: You’re talented, interesting, and relevant. I always enjoy spending time with you, even if infrequent.

Cari: You’ve come out of nowhere. You’ve got more spunk and experience than most of us. You’re absolutely feerless and I’ve already learned from you.

Heather: You make an impression on everyone around you. I can’t think of anyone more level-headed, yet so playful. I wish everyone was as honest as you.

Scott N.: The world would be a better place if more people were as laid-back as you are. I learn that there’s more and more to you each time we hang out.

Matt O.: Like your hetero-lifemate, you’re laid back and witty. Always an interesting conversation with you.

Kaylan: You’ve got great character and are a blast to hang out with. On top of that, you work harder than most of us. You deserve whatever good comes your way.

Mandi: Artist, musician, all-around cool girl. Your input is always lovely. If you’ve caught the attention of Derrick, you’re ok in my book.

Derrick: You’ve got a true disregard for outside judgement that is almost non-existant in the rest of the population. Musical jack of all trades. I will be playing bass guitar because of you.

Tyler: You make it possible for me to get through the workday without pulling my hair out. You’ve got a great sense of humor and a natural aptitude for everything.

Mea: Intellect, beauty, wit. You’re cooler than you know. You’ve taught me things about myself. I hope you find what you’re looking for.

Dad: Your support has kept me afloat in more than a couple of ways. You’ve taught me to roll with the punches. I hope to make you proud. You are my hero.

Mom: You’ve shown me what love is, and what it’s worth. Most of my good qualities, I get from you. I’d do anything to ease your pain. You are my hero.